The guys in my life.

Here is a little update on the guys in my life.

Josh and I have been hanging out together again on a regular basis with the occasional sex here and there. He has almost become a fixture in my life every weekend. I like it but it feels off somehow..he is a little needy. I had to tell him to tone down the hugging..it's getting on my nerves and he gets a little too close at times when not appropriate. The other morning..my wife even jokingly asked if Josh and I were sleeping together. It's something she jokes about with everyone, so I knew she wasn't being serious. I just laughed it off and said, "actually honey we are and he's amazing"..I kissed her, winked and told her I was kidding, giving her my 'get away with everything' smile..as she calls it. It kinda felt good to tell the truth in a way, but then it felt kinda crazy to do that. Oh well..

I am still doing my daily lunches with Ryan. With a couple of those being at his house every week where we can get close without worry. It's been fun with him. I think we know every dirty detail about each other. He is becoming a very good friend and person I can really trust.

William has been scarce the past month. He was on vacation for a few weeks visiting family and now he has classes ending so we haven't seen too much of each other. We did go out for drinks and talk a couple weeks ago but nothing else since Halloween. He insists that we will see a lot more of each other as soon as the semester ends. Looking forward to that.

Then there is Daniel..the grocery store guy. I have not done anything but flirt with him as much as I can. I have been going there to get coffee at the Starbucks in the store and coming up with reasons to talk to him. I don't think anything will come of it though. He is super professional. Damn.

That pretty much sums it all up. Nothing too exciting..so that means I am due for something right? Haha

Jon

He is the son of a family friend who I have known ever since I can remember. Last time I saw him he was about 18..I think. I saw him at a family thing a couple weeks ago and we started chatting and have been in communication since. We have a lot of the same interests..always have..but now there was something different added in our conversations. Slight innuendos on his part, but if he is flirting, he is good because it's so subtle. All I know is that I felt drawn to him like I haven't before. Now I can't stop thinking about him....

I am really becoming overly sexual. I do realize that..but I decided a while ago to stop fighting it and just see where it leads me. My marriage has been rocky..has been for a while. It just seems to have stalled in a way. Almost like we care about each other but we are no longer IN LOVE with each other and we have both taken notice of this. I seriously believe my wife is having her own sexual awakening too. I have noticed an increase in her privacy as far as her not leaving her cell phone around and quickly closing out screens on her computer when I walk in the room. I guess that takes some of the guilt away..not sure..but I realize I am completely ok with it. Weird..I used to be the jealous type.

Ok..that went on a bit of a tangent, but when it's there I have to let it out.

Anyway..Jon and I have been talking periodically over the phone and through email planning a hiking trip for this coming weekend. He seems really excited about it and I definitely am. It will be just him and I. I guess we will see what happens. I do know that I am going to go on an all out flirt frenzy and see if I'm reading him right or not. Hopefully I am.

Bad Blogger

Ok..I am officially a bad blogger. To my defense however, things have been a bit wacky with school, work, home, holiday, vacation and guys..all rolled up in an increasingly competitive time war. Oh well..I am in need of my blog world again and hope to post with more frequency now.

Since it's been a while since my last post, an update is in order. I am still married, still working the same old job and the same old classes and still involved sexually with William, Ryan and Josh. With a brand new prospect in the works. His name is Jon. We met at a family thing around Thanksgiving and the underlying flirting embedded in our conversations..was intense..for me anyway. Kinda was taken by surprise with this one. He is a friend of the family that was just a kid the last time I saw him..now he is a very hot 23 year old that I really need to get to know better..like I need to add more to my life?? haha..but how do you say no to your urges?

...seriously, how do you..because I am at a loss at this point.


I will post with more detail tomorrow. Home life is currently beckoning me with responsibility. I will try and keep sane until then.

Later guys..


--Oh and PS..in response to comments on my last post. This blog is NOT a porn site, so sorry guys..I will not go into any more sexual detail than what is posted unless I find it necessary. Thanks to those who like my blog for what it is..just me spilling my thoughts and stories.