I had sex with Josh again last night. Went over to his house after work before his wife got home. He wanted me to be on top and of course I complied. Apparently he has had his fare share of sexual encounters with guys himself. He even told me that he used to date a guy for a while before he was married. Who knew..
This thing with him is interesting. He was the first guy in a long time that I had actually wanted to have sex with back when I had that fun emotional turmoil rolling around in my head. Sex with him felt surreal in a way. I was looking at him while I was doing the act yesterday and felt almost like it wasn't me. When I look at him I remember how I used to feel..all confused and nervous..and now I feel completely different. I felt like I was taking advantage of him for some reason too. Not sure why? He sought me out and now I am just going along for the ride.
I hope everythings ok, you sound a little confused in your post. But i'm the same way for you haha. I'm glad that you've found someone who wants you and who you want; but at the same time be aware that this appears to be lust. i know i keep going on, i just dont want you to develop feelings for him and be dissapointed (or vice versa). Friends with benefits can find it difficult to remove their emotions :/
ReplyDeleteTake care, Jack xx
Love the posts. Keep em coming.
ReplyDeleteAny chance you'd be interested in giving a little more detail in your sexual encounters? I don't know if I'm the only one but I enjoy reading the fine details of man on man sex. For instance, did you start out kissing, or kiss at all? Did you both do oral on each other first or go straight to anal? That sort of stuff.
ReplyDeleteI understand some don't like to go into detail, but I've actually do go into detail and have posted details of a number of my sex encounters online. I'm surprised more guy don't like writing about them.
Otherwise, just found your blog and have it bookmarked. Keep up the posting.
I started reading your blog yesterday and now current. I too agree that I would like to see you post a few details aboutbyour encounters. ..we all want to know about body type, looks like, penis size and thickness and enjoyment. Am I the only one? That for the window into your world.
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Christian,
ReplyDeleteFirst comment, just discovered your blog!
First thought: I just don't understand why people think you should post the details of your encounters. This isn't a porn blog, it's a blog about your ups and downs and trying to figure out life. If they want porn, so read Nifty Gay Archives or something.
Second thought: I'll get caught up eventually. So I can't really comment much on the whole encounter thing...keep blogging, I know it's done me a world of good.
Peace <3
Jay
I hope you are planning to continue this blog; I'm very interested how things develop with you. And I'm with the guys who think less is more, that adding more graphic detail would distract us (and you) from the real story here, as it were.
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